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Have you ever thought of finally telling the one you like that you fancy him?

In some alternative universe, I simply cannot try.

It’s not because I am too afraid to do so, on the contrary I am very well in doing so, but the rejection I mostly fear.

Since he is not from where I come from, he has his standards. I, a lonely young girl from here, and he, from where he came from, is not entirely compatible with each other. We are just entirely different persons in search of whatever was there and what we truly deserved.

And it’s his lost really. Like, come on, bloody hell! My friends gave him the hint that I LIKED him but he didn’t really DO anything about it. He must be gay. Definitely. Stupid bloke.

"To the left, to the left."

Lol.

I love that song.

"To the left, to the left.

Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that’s my stuff - Yes
If I bought it nigga please don’t touch
And keep talking that mess, that’s fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time
And It’s my mine name that is on that Jag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I’m such a fool - Talking about
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And  call up on that chick and see if she is home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn’t know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Cause you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool - Talking about
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute"

Yeah, that’s what I’m talking about.

All you blokes out there who hurt us, don’t ever think that we gals can’t replace you. Because damn it, we deserve better. And you don’t deserve us.

So with that said, peace. x

Have you ever thought of having somebody piss at you?

Got your attention? Lol. Figuratively, of course. My friends, who I love, have suddenly started to fade away from my life. I feel pissed at and I am almost ashamed of myself that I couldn’t grasp the reality that we’re all growing up.

I have matured in some point, I know, and I feel that the connection that me and my friends once have had suddenly vanished. It completely baffled me that at some point, we’ve started to drift away in our own lives.

Fourth year, as we all know, is one of the most fun and hectic year of our lives. And I feel that mine is nothing compared to other’s accomplishments in this age. What do I have to offer? My voice? My talent? My brains? What else?

I think being ridiculed at before you go off to college is unjustly. Those damned lower years think they’re all that but what are they compared to what I have been? I’m not special as what I may be perceived to be but at least I have the dignity to stand in my own feet and be myself and not hide in others’ shadows.

Reality check, everybody is different. May it be their smell, their hair, their attitude, their smile, we’re different in some ways and people don’t have to be made fun of because of flaws that each person has. So to those who are judgemental bitches out there, look at yourself in the mirror and see how ugly you really are.

Be proud of who and what you are. Change for the better if necessary but never change for the satisfaction of other people. You are an individual and ideally, I am too.

Ehem, am I still talking in first person? Good. Lol.

Oh well, I think I’ve had enough of an outburst today. Might as well end this here for the day. I have to go and do my project in AP anyways. =.=;;

Hugs and Kisses. x